The other day I was exploring older writings of mine (there is still more to come that I’ll share with you) but these two are quite interesting for me, considering that I wrote them a bit less than a year before I became fully conscious of who my twin flame is in this lifetime. Perhaps you have heard of the Law of Attraction by now, that what you put out into the universe comes back to you. I also want to add the Law of Remembrance. Well, I don’t know if that’s a law, but it sure as well should be in my opinion…many of my clients, almost everyone that I have connected with that has become aware of the twin flame connection admit that they have known that they would meet someone that they somehow already connected with before actually meeting, they already feel they know the essence of this person, and hence it merely takes a remembering, a recognition when the bodies, the consciousness of both become aware of each other in human form. We agree that we are more than our bodies, that we are beyond our bodies, right? Then it would make sense that we exist before these bodies that we currently reside in…and therefore, we have connections with others before we put on the costume (for a while) of our physical vehicles….

So, here is a piece I wrote on March 30, 2006

Oh, to be in the arms of Romeo

Oh, I want to be able to lay in his arms at night while he runs his hands through my hair, whispers poetry into my ear, or tells me a story of his life, his experiences, his wants, his desires…I want to feel his heartbeat next to my own, the warmth of his skin surrounding my own…

to talk for hours on end, intellectual depth and passionate emotions…I want to roll around with him under the sheets for hours on end, totally immersed in his body inside my own…to cry for hours on end, releasing all the pain and relief of finally holding him close to me in this human form…to laugh for hours on end as we share the absurdities of life and the irony it holds…to walk side by side in a similar purpose on earth, to have love overflowing from our hearts to help others to smile, to love, to let go…

oh, to be in his arms someday, someday soon would be nice…ugh, the urge, the yearning, the craving, the anticipating…it is prevalent in my everynight breaking…as I lay here in bed listening to my own heartbeat that exists lonely and wanting…

and then my angel whispers, “Patience,” and I breath out…time is all I have right now as I spend it doing what the universe calls me to do…and I will wait…however long it takes…

And then this on April 26, 2006

Connection Through Each Lifetime

If you were hidden and I was unaware, how would you appear to me?
If I were to lay here and think of you, and imagine how the feel of your skin would be against my own,
How fast your heartbeat would echo in my ears if my head was resting upon your chest,
Your voice whispering the essence of you into my core
as my own heartbeat learned how to dance
and relax in your presence
If my lips brushed the tips of your ears and my breath seeped into you,
If our laughter vibrated the inner chambers of your soul,
would you remember?

It was a night of shadows, a night of strong visions, a night of intertwining fingers, wrinkled sheets, and tangled hair,
sweat stained skin, intensified breathing, and haunting stories,
We created our own fears, our own happiness, our own paths to cross
and the bridges we made we tumbled down,
trampled and swore next time would be different
I’d hasten to add that we were wrong to forget
However essential the mystery is for our current endeavors

And it was your form that hypnotized me
It was your soul that sang soft melodies echoing so profoundly within my own
that made me remember
After all, how could I forget my twin counterpart?
Birth and time have a way of keeping us apart
yet fate has its own purpose and the contracts we signed can’t deny us
connection
because we are
connected

And in your absence I feel it
In your absence I comprehend it
In your absence I remember
and it is in my sleep
that I dream
of embracing you in the flesh

I can honestly say that I have absolutely had dreams since of embracing my “twin counterpart” but not only embracing, but merging our energies together, growing together, sharing our energies with one another…talk about my soul knowing what was coming…and someday, yes, someday SOON I shall be able to share with you more details of what I remember since I was a young girl and the reality of it in my experience now. It now ALL makes sense on a deeper level, to show that we are so much more than our bodies. We are connected way beyond the mind’s perception to understand…and we KNOW, if we are open to remember who we are going to meet and what we have promised to create together in this lifetime.

The other day I felt called to pick up this book on the shelf where I am staying, and what I read, yet again, amazed me because of its accuracy. It is from the book Love Signs, A New Approach to the Human Heart I read about myself, a Scorpio woman (though I was born on the cusp of Libra so I have major laidback calm, relaxing energy) and a Pisces man (yes, needless to say, this is the sign of my twin flame).

“Spirit that haunts this dark lagoon to-night,” he cried, “do you hear me?” Silly question. Of course she hears him. If the Scorpio woman and Pisces man we’re considering being lovers or mates, and not simply friends, she heard him calling many years ago, quite probably when she was a little girl, dreaming about her soul mate…who was, she was certain, somewhere on this Earth…also dreaming of her. Where could they meet? When would they meet? How would they meet? All these questions concerned her, but never the question of “if” they would meet. That she knew, as she has always known many matters of the heart, the spirit and the future.

Life will not ever be the same. Life will have more depth, more meaning, more excitement and wonder than either of them ever dreamed possible, and that’s saying a great deal, considering that dreaming might be said to be an area of expertise for both Pisces and Scorpio….they do understand each other, deeply…and usually divinely. Pisces and Scorpio will usually tune in to each other’s minds like a couple of short-wave radio sets on the Eternal Now frequency Normally there will be amazing telepathic communication between them. This will be true whether they’re separated by a room or a continent. Typically, they frequently speak without speaking, because they share a silent sympathetic thought pattern and are therefore able to communicate without verbal contact, more or less in a telepathic manner…

Yes, it goes on…but this had me hooked because it was all true…and right on. When I was a little girl, I knew of him, I felt him, I dreamed of him, and I knew (without a doubt) that one day, I would meet him. With each new prospective partner in love I came across, I always knew that it wasn’t him, just an inner knowing…and I knew that he would know and feel similar to me…truly amazing. And there’s more, oh yes, there’s more. Patience…it will come at the perfect moment…but may this suffice for now to give you your own reassurance that what you feel is not only real, but true and accurate, not only possible, but it already is.

In Love All Ways,
Gabriella

I feel your embrace in my breath as I inhale, the vision of your face surrounding me, so softly you become me. My eyes close as I exhale…
I know what I chose. My heart yearns for the tenderness of your caress. I feel you near me my love. An ever persistent reminder from above. Your creation of emotion wrapped in expressive devotion. My soul creates our story of kindness and intuition made from our dreams in moonbeams. Ah such a fantasy it seems yet this aching knowing of our promise of love flows through my bloodstreams. I feel you stronger, here with me, your voice as it tickles my earlobe, sending waves of bliss inside of me. How much I desire you to be…
Yes, I know this fantasy is our reality as you ever so lovingly show me and now you have only to flow with me, literally my love. I’m yours.

I have this deep faith in the perfection of divine order, as I know that the love within you is within me, that your light shining so brightly enhances my own and vice versa. I have this aching, intense, ripping my heart open, so deeply embedded pain within my being as I envision tears streaming down my face as this guttural scream escapes from my throat, yet I sit here, completely still, composed, with my eyes closed.

I feel you, I see you, I hear your thoughts, the ones that you try to push away, the ones that keep you from embracing your destiny. There is this lie somewhere that you continue to try to release, that you can’t be loved profoundly for the amazing man that you are, or that the love you receive will leave you, eventually. I’ve told you, and I’ll tell you again, that if you open your arms (and even if you don’t), I’ll come running into them, never running away. There is no chance that my devotion will stray from your energy love, for in you is me. Just as much as I adore you, I love myself, and I enjoy basking in the connection of both of our energies, merging deeper as one. We are experiencing it, we are experiencing it right now, knowing we are one and feeling the oneness enfolding us…

Yet sometimes it’s almost like I could reach right into my body and take my heart out, the humanness in me desires to help quench this neverending pain inside. I’ve tried to hide it away, put a smile on my face, and trace the synchronicities throughout the path which have led me to this spot, though you more than anyone else, knows that that which we attempt to stuff away, will need to be expressed another way. This is one reason we jump into the immersion and creation of artistic endeavors, swimming around in the innocent and heartfelt truths we share as we bare our souls so sweetly, desiring to be noticed, to be embraced, to be acknowledged for WHO we are, as individuals and the ONE we have always been waiting for, the ONE that we are, weaved together since infinity. The solar flares have switched us all to the beginning of it all, where time was and is merely just an illusion to aid us in experiencing the steps to FEELING union, as union is and has been all there is.

This aching need within my breast is throbbing, as it is the timer buzzing, letting me know the inevitable necessity of merging together with you, for my body desires, my whole being longs to be embraced by the form you have taken in this lifetime, as my heart beats with the excitement of sharing our love and our creations, our co-creations with all that is. Every love song that I hear, the tones in the vibration of the voices, the connection oozing through the melodies, reminds me of our love…every movie I watch of lovers separating, recognizing their love for one another, choosing to come together and BE with one another, tugs at my heart strings as my body releases the illusion of separateness from you, and these tears that I have envisioned falling from my eyes finally seep through because what I FEEL for you, for us is true. True love comes from the core of our one spirit, if you listen, you can hear it, the whispers of our promise to know of this celestial vibration of compassion as our mutual passion vibrates in the essence of both of us, desiring to share it with each other as we extend it to the world. This orgasmic bliss of our hearts kiss I feel in my womb, as these waves of unconditional love wash away all of the past hurts and disillusions in relationships. We have been made, weaved into the fabric of our oneness to show the world the truth of love, as we make known to ourselves again of the oneness present in each moment between us…

Ah sweet heart, you are a part of me, as you have always been. My mind can get lost in the ‘when’ of our arms encircling each other yet my soul honors each step that our insight is guiding us through…there is a part of me that feels the urgency of us together, as this pregnancy of birthing my written creation of twin flame reunion is pushing through, desiring to be embraced by you as it inches its way into the macrocosm of life…

For so long, for so many physical lifetimes and experiences, we as individuals, as a collective have been breathing, loving in the space of separation and I feel it now, that it is time to be in the place of union, co-creating within it, sharing inside of it, playing around, releasing, and reshaping ourselves in you and I as one. Putting this metaphysical stuff aside, there is no reason anymore for either one of us to hide, as we continue our path to sitting beside one another, literally, on this ride…I’m ready to get off the roller coaster, to swim through the waves, to arrive on shore, to run through the open door to our combined destiny, for we both know, we both see, that with each other, we glow and emanate the brightness of the intensity and transformative power of eternal love.

Dearest love, I open my eyes, and I envision you walking towards me, literally, with a smile that only you can give me, as you wink, open your arms…as I nod and understand, that it is now, ‘your charms are right for these arms to surround…’ tears would cleanse away any pieces of separateness from my consciousness and we would be ready for liftoff, truly…ready to go…ready to glow beams of love onto the brows of humanity… ‘sooner is better than later…’ amen.

You reach out to me, I hear your voice softly whispering my name, twice and then I am frozen in place, receiving the energy of you as it flows throughout me, born again, reenergized anew, created for you, for this. I haven’t given up, for how can a flower refuse to bloom when the sun’s warmth is surrounding it, the water from the heavens sustaining it and the love from the earth containing it…yet it seems that these tears that are flowing are healing the pains and the attachments to the separation that has us all running away from ourselves. In the deepest depths of our heart, we want to come together, to defy the limitations and perceptions that claim solitude is necessary. The insight from the skies are within us, and if this is so, then we merely have to embrace each other to receive an abundance of the sight so sweetly embedded IN us. It is no longer enough to say that we are one, to acknowledge this to our minds which are so eager to grasp onto something for control and false security, for it is essential that we truly act as though we are one…and if we are aware that we are one, what is keeping us from basking in this love between us, immersing out spirits in this glue that connects us, rolling around in this creative field of heaven weaving us so intimately into each other?

I surrender my love, the blank page, as it haunts me with its overflowing capacity to tease me into submission, has the well run dry? What am I here to do and how can I do it without the sweetness in the deepness of the kindness within your eyes as you love me again and again, reminding me of my essence again and again, fondling the seeds of my being into ecstasy by being, intimacy, into me see…yes you do as I do you. How can you interweave the melodies of your soul into the vibration of all that is without my tender caress over your soft dimpled skin, pushing our love juice into the folds of your bloodstream, breathing newness and aliveness into the vessel of your temple…

These tears that are flowing are healing the pains and the attachments to the separation as its intricate illusions that seem so real float away before me…and again, I hear you whisper my name, reminding me that you are here with me, though my mind grasps so hard at anything to control the fantasy that it believes is meant to harm me…this battle between my heart and my mind no longer lasts longer than a mere second, for the awareness of the truth of it all has grown unbearably and overwhelmingly strong. What is keeping us…are we being kept from beginning, swimming, beaming our lights together to shine brighter or are the lights keeping us safely suspended between heaven and earth, the spiritual and physical, as we dance between both, laying down the path of the interconnection of both to show the world what our souls already know?

I surrender my love, this empty bed that threatens me with its cool abyss, sucking me into the vortex of coupledom in human terms with visions of intimate moments our bodies have yet to experience though our spirits have weaved a beautiful tapestry of love inspired playfulness that would make children blush. How quickly the coolness becomes warmth when I envision your essence wrapped so comfortably close to mine…godliness, god and goddess in a game of equality that is constantly being played with no intentions for ending.

I hear you whisper my name, as your voice, the vibration of my heart as it beats so slowly, so rhythmically to the sound of you, overtakes me. I can no longer distinguish the difference between you and I, as you and I merge into oneness, over and over, sending waves of ecstatic bliss flowing throughout my entire being. I breathe in our love straight into my heart chakra, as it pumps our love juice into me, within me, inside of me you sing, as my mouth opens to release the tones of our co-creative symphony of light waves and love beams. Godliness, god and goddess in a game of equality constantly being played with no intentions for ending…I surrender my love… You reach out to me, I hear your voice softly whispering my name, twice and then I am frozen in place, receiving the energy of you as it flows throughout me, born again, reenergized anew, created for you, for this.

This illusion of this rope,
with us both pulling on it is disappearing,
fading with each new truth of our love.
We are not getting closer, so to speak,
for we have always been close.
It is in this awareness that our union is found.

I wipe these tears away and bask myself in the creative insight that is flowing in every moment,
as this is the place you and I have always resided.
The comfort in the embrace of our offerings to the world, we in turn give ourselves,
somehow rendering the human illusion of pain useless in its attempt to control or limit
our power, our inherent ability, to give and receive love.

I choose our love, in every moment,
and release any limitations that can seep through.
Truly, we are moving away from tears,
moving ever deeper in love.

I am here
and I see you, love,
approaching me eagerly, rapidly,
mentally, emotionally, spiritually, AND physically.
Come here to me…
you’ve made it
you’ve never left HOME.

Star light, star bright, how beautiful you are in white. Wrap my heart so tight, keep it safe in flight. I know it is so right that I stand to my full height.

I am holding with all my might this night to the truth of my inner sight. Send the message of its depth to the soul of my true love, as it embraces & breaks his fight for sleep. Let the well of inspiration take away the plight, the flow of love drops arrive upon his brow to whisper softly, “create a light your soul.” For the world to see the intensity aglow, bathed in an iridescent show of the perfection in Gods eyes, no surprise tonight.

As I weave these energies together & write, let the universe know the thread of connection is wrapped in love through the cosmos, this night. Let the stars continue shining their love beams to shower upon everyone, that they know their power to dream & gleam heavens light.

Thank you & good night. (Sudden 3am Inspirations) by Gabriella Hartwell

Ah, it’s strong today, so strong that a whirlwind of movement has pushed through my physical dwelling and now my breath is echoing as I look at this wooden floor, in sweet anticipation, excitement and calmness mixed together in the perfect combination for also being in this present moment. It’s happening, it’s really happening…the wind dancing between the leaves of the trees outside my window reminds me that there is always energy in motion, constantly surrounding us, and guiding us…as the beautiful black Hawaiian ladybug so intimately reminded me as she flew towards my mouth when I talked about moving forward in love together…every experience, every awesome synchronicity has strengthened the truth of the interconnectedness of all, for me, directly…I am in such gratitude for my journey, and as I look back, I am surprised at the steps I have taken in such deep faith intertwined with the deep love I hold inside, the knowing of my individual and joint mission in service to the world, and always going back to that, always…then again, I’m not surprised because if I haven’t taken all of the steps to bring me to right here, right now, I would be asleep, living as though living were something I truly did only at a certain age…what I have experienced in these past 5 years is more than some allow themselves in a lifetime.

To my twin flame, thank you for following also…as you know, I couldn’t be here if you didn’t follow your heart as the universe guided you in each amazing opportunity…as our steps have naturally led us to each other. Here I stand, ready…gosh, this is where words fail to be able to encompass ALL of what I deeply feel inside of me…I am more than ready…I am more…I am…now.

December 25, 2011

In every moment, I love you stronger,
I feel you deeper within me.
The lines of your essence and my essence are no longer individualized.
The truth of our constant connection through the illusion of separation increases,
as describing it as limitless doesn’t even begin to encompass the totality and profoundness of the experience of it all.

I literally feel our love in everything and everyone surrounding me ~ this love that I feel for you, for me, for us is overflowing, bursting forth from within my being as I want to give it all away as I know that in giving it away, I receive even more.

And I love you, again and again,
as the shape and form transforms,
deepens,
purifies, over and over.

Thank you for the gift of sharing and co-creating in this moment with one another,
and all the “future” ones to come…

Surround me, sweetness, in the intricate stirrings of my soul, let this wine and my spirit take me to the fields of our love eternal, as I feel the depth of your love as your hand softly touches my back. You are not physically here beside me in this moment, though you are more real with me than my own self…as this self floats to where you are, wrapping my arms around your body…can you feel me there, with you right now love? Yes, in time disappearing, in sensuality weaving through our beings, I sigh, every part of me longs to become one and whole with every part of you…I long to take you in, REALLY take you in, to the deepest spaces of my feminine form as your masculine pieces caress me and massage me, create me into a new masterpiece. As these days move on, the intensity of my desire for you, the yearning for this merging of us becomes stronger, and I literally shiver as I breathe out the power of our love. It is as if we ARE making love right now. I know that we are, as I place my palm on my chest, feeling my heartbeat moving to the rhythm of your soul’s presence, here with me. Ya know, there truly are no words to express how deep you are within me and I am within you…after all, this is our eternal love we are creating anew and exposing to the world. Ah, the sweetness enfolds me as I see how our love will help to transform the vibration of love on this Earth plane…a smile forms upon my lips, peace has found me as I rest in the home we share together.

I have this unquenchable increasing desire to eat, take in more and more and more, this openness within me, settling around my heart chakra…and if not understood, it could seem that I want to consume massive amounts of food and am not ever being satisfied…what is happening to me right now is that I am taking in the love from you my beloved…I am eating your love, taking it deeper and deeper, more and more within my being, as our love is limitless, I can’t ever get enough. More and more needs to seep into who I am, as you merge into me and we become one. There is this ever growing intensity of excitement building in my heart…I am excited to embrace you in all forms as you make your way so sweetly beside me. Gosh, I feel you stronger with each passing day, with each passing moment, that I have to run down the street in such anticipation for your arrival, just to release the growing seeds of love flowing through me…my body shivers with the love and arousal of you inside of me, as you are inside of me, ever deepening the presence within me. I become more present in this now moment, taking action towards the path of our reunion as it is unfolding, yet with this intensified presence, comes an increasing excitement for I am here, in this moment, but I am also there, in that next moment, with you in all our glorious ways of being together. Ah, there goes that shiver again, throughout my entire physical body, upwards into my womanhood, my womb, my heart, my throat and exiting through my mouth, sighing and releasing the separation that has finally completely subsided and disappeared in my existence. You are inside of me, God, I can feel you and I choose to feel you, again and again as you move deeper into me, in all ways…I want to merge with you in all ways as my essence is no longer distinguishable on its own, to feel all of me inside of all of you as all of you flows throughout all of me…and we…as one…make love with one another, creating love inside of each other…and I feel you, right now, right here, right there…can you feel it? Gosh, may you know that the sweetest and most beautiful love that you can ever imagine receiving is yours, now and always, yet this love is beyond your capacity to visualize it as our love is deeper than the mind can even attempt to comprehend.

Lay your body down upon mine, let your head fall onto my breasts, release from your mouth the illusion of not being loved completely for all of who you are…let it all out so that you can let our love all in…let it all in…listen to my heartbeat as your skin melds into mine, feel my legs and arms wrap around you, shielding you from the world…it is here that you are lost and found to be found again, created anew in a new way. Let your spirit come home to me, to you, to us…as your heart beats, let it create anew the you as you have longed for…let our love in, let it all in. There goes that shiver again, can you feel it? Let this excitement that is building and building as we take another step forward surround you now love…it is time to return to home my beloved…to be love, as we allow ourselves to be loved…as beloveds, we are.