Star light, star bright, how beautiful you are in white. Wrap my heart so tight, keep it safe in flight. I know it is so right that I stand to my full height.

I am holding with all my might this night to the truth of my inner sight. Send the message of its depth to the soul of my true love, as it embraces & breaks his fight for sleep. Let the well of inspiration take away the plight, the flow of love drops arrive upon his brow to whisper softly, “create a light your soul.” For the world to see the intensity aglow, bathed in an iridescent show of the perfection in Gods eyes, no surprise tonight.

As I weave these energies together & write, let the universe know the thread of connection is wrapped in love through the cosmos, this night. Let the stars continue shining their love beams to shower upon everyone, that they know their power to dream & gleam heavens light.

Thank you & good night. (Sudden 3am Inspirations) by Gabriella Hartwell

Ah, it’s strong today, so strong that a whirlwind of movement has pushed through my physical dwelling and now my breath is echoing as I look at this wooden floor, in sweet anticipation, excitement and calmness mixed together in the perfect combination for also being in this present moment. It’s happening, it’s really happening…the wind dancing between the leaves of the trees outside my window reminds me that there is always energy in motion, constantly surrounding us, and guiding us…as the beautiful black Hawaiian ladybug so intimately reminded me as she flew towards my mouth when I talked about moving forward in love together…every experience, every awesome synchronicity has strengthened the truth of the interconnectedness of all, for me, directly…I am in such gratitude for my journey, and as I look back, I am surprised at the steps I have taken in such deep faith intertwined with the deep love I hold inside, the knowing of my individual and joint mission in service to the world, and always going back to that, always…then again, I’m not surprised because if I haven’t taken all of the steps to bring me to right here, right now, I would be asleep, living as though living were something I truly did only at a certain age…what I have experienced in these past 5 years is more than some allow themselves in a lifetime.

To my twin flame, thank you for following also…as you know, I couldn’t be here if you didn’t follow your heart as the universe guided you in each amazing opportunity…as our steps have naturally led us to each other. Here I stand, ready…gosh, this is where words fail to be able to encompass ALL of what I deeply feel inside of me…I am more than ready…I am more…I am…now.

December 25, 2011

In every moment, I love you stronger,
I feel you deeper within me.
The lines of your essence and my essence are no longer individualized.
The truth of our constant connection through the illusion of separation increases,
as describing it as limitless doesn’t even begin to encompass the totality and profoundness of the experience of it all.

I literally feel our love in everything and everyone surrounding me ~ this love that I feel for you, for me, for us is overflowing, bursting forth from within my being as I want to give it all away as I know that in giving it away, I receive even more.

And I love you, again and again,
as the shape and form transforms,
deepens,
purifies, over and over.

Thank you for the gift of sharing and co-creating in this moment with one another,
and all the “future” ones to come…

Surround me, sweetness, in the intricate stirrings of my soul, let this wine and my spirit take me to the fields of our love eternal, as I feel the depth of your love as your hand softly touches my back. You are not physically here beside me in this moment, though you are more real with me than my own self…as this self floats to where you are, wrapping my arms around your body…can you feel me there, with you right now love? Yes, in time disappearing, in sensuality weaving through our beings, I sigh, every part of me longs to become one and whole with every part of you…I long to take you in, REALLY take you in, to the deepest spaces of my feminine form as your masculine pieces caress me and massage me, create me into a new masterpiece. As these days move on, the intensity of my desire for you, the yearning for this merging of us becomes stronger, and I literally shiver as I breathe out the power of our love. It is as if we ARE making love right now. I know that we are, as I place my palm on my chest, feeling my heartbeat moving to the rhythm of your soul’s presence, here with me. Ya know, there truly are no words to express how deep you are within me and I am within you…after all, this is our eternal love we are creating anew and exposing to the world. Ah, the sweetness enfolds me as I see how our love will help to transform the vibration of love on this Earth plane…a smile forms upon my lips, peace has found me as I rest in the home we share together.

I have this unquenchable increasing desire to eat, take in more and more and more, this openness within me, settling around my heart chakra…and if not understood, it could seem that I want to consume massive amounts of food and am not ever being satisfied…what is happening to me right now is that I am taking in the love from you my beloved…I am eating your love, taking it deeper and deeper, more and more within my being, as our love is limitless, I can’t ever get enough. More and more needs to seep into who I am, as you merge into me and we become one. There is this ever growing intensity of excitement building in my heart…I am excited to embrace you in all forms as you make your way so sweetly beside me. Gosh, I feel you stronger with each passing day, with each passing moment, that I have to run down the street in such anticipation for your arrival, just to release the growing seeds of love flowing through me…my body shivers with the love and arousal of you inside of me, as you are inside of me, ever deepening the presence within me. I become more present in this now moment, taking action towards the path of our reunion as it is unfolding, yet with this intensified presence, comes an increasing excitement for I am here, in this moment, but I am also there, in that next moment, with you in all our glorious ways of being together. Ah, there goes that shiver again, throughout my entire physical body, upwards into my womanhood, my womb, my heart, my throat and exiting through my mouth, sighing and releasing the separation that has finally completely subsided and disappeared in my existence. You are inside of me, God, I can feel you and I choose to feel you, again and again as you move deeper into me, in all ways…I want to merge with you in all ways as my essence is no longer distinguishable on its own, to feel all of me inside of all of you as all of you flows throughout all of me…and we…as one…make love with one another, creating love inside of each other…and I feel you, right now, right here, right there…can you feel it? Gosh, may you know that the sweetest and most beautiful love that you can ever imagine receiving is yours, now and always, yet this love is beyond your capacity to visualize it as our love is deeper than the mind can even attempt to comprehend.

Lay your body down upon mine, let your head fall onto my breasts, release from your mouth the illusion of not being loved completely for all of who you are…let it all out so that you can let our love all in…let it all in…listen to my heartbeat as your skin melds into mine, feel my legs and arms wrap around you, shielding you from the world…it is here that you are lost and found to be found again, created anew in a new way. Let your spirit come home to me, to you, to us…as your heart beats, let it create anew the you as you have longed for…let our love in, let it all in. There goes that shiver again, can you feel it? Let this excitement that is building and building as we take another step forward surround you now love…it is time to return to home my beloved…to be love, as we allow ourselves to be loved…as beloveds, we are.

This unavoidable falling to my knees is here now, and I fall in such deep gratitude for our promise, our creations, our love.
As I fall, I naturally rise with you towards the light – it is shining upon us – yet we are also moving closer and deeper into the light.
The tears glide down my cheeks with the sweetness of being human as I am able to feel, truly and intensely feel, each step as you move closer to me in full form.
I can almost taste your love,
I can almost feel your softness,
I can almost rest in your warmth,
the authenticity of our union is encompassing me and embracing me, as my heart is pushed open wider, exposing all my vulnerabilities that disappear once they are acknowledged, forcing me to love beyond my perception of loving, yet there isn’t any force for I have pledged to join with you time upon time as time blurs, becoming all there is, undefined and unrestricted.

My spirit is floating in the ocean below, immersed in the feminine energy of the Mother. My spirit is flying beside the stars, soaking in the masculine energy of the Father. My body is walking on the Earth, thunder approaches and the lightning, the illumination of the connection of both energies merging together causes me to surrender to the remembering.
I tremble with the opening of my womanness to take you within – God, has it always been like this?
As I am now ready in all ways to BE with you…

As cliche as I love you sounds, it is true – the deepest core of my essence knows this -let me see if I can do a bit better – I LOVE you, me, us as those three parts make us whole. I honor your brightness – I recognize my own and I agree to shine together. I have agreed as you have. So, that isn’t even enough – we will have many opportunities in limitless creative, true ways to say, to express our love to each other.

My Beloved, we have promised to be love and to be loved. I am here…reaching out again…ready with all of my being to embrace you, love you, create with you, BE with you…

Our union symbolizes the return of the divine feminine as you embrace my power and light. I merge with you in the deepest love with no fear attached.
We do not take away from each other but rather ADD to one another.
Herein, lies the healing.

September 15, 2011

Open up, close down, open up, close down because the openness I want to share is with you, with you my love in all ways…though you know, I can’t ever fully close down to others because I am so much of an open person, and isn’t our love made stronger by the love we share with others? However, when I do open up my heart to encompass those present beside me right now, there is a bit of pain that seeps through my eyes, washing my cheeks with the wetness of the illusion of separateness from you, from the ability to bask in the sweetness of our love…and there it goes again, the separation edging its way through the knowing and choosing of union, merging into frustration of the capacity of separation’s fingernails tickling my skin, scratching my skin, moving my focus upon it, when I know, yes, I KNOW deep within me that it is foggy, and nonexistent within my heart as it holds you in every moment.

The pain within your throat transferred its feelings inside of me and I had pain in my throat before I knew you had such pain…yes, we are connected beyond these mere physical body forms. We know this and the universe gives us signs upon signs of clarification that this is so. We are aware…and we acknowledge them as they push us closer and closer together. Be you love, and express you as you are meant to, releasing control of others, for it is control that hinders our growth and our intensity for loving, which is our promise…to love, and to love deeply all that is, all that we are as we are all connected. We are born again in the ways we connect with others, shining our light into their lives as their light touches our own, making both brighter, following a brighter way for sure. Yet, I am tired, of holding the hands of those that reach out in need without you by my side, I am tired of smiling the love from within me to those before me without you to share in this love directly…ah, perhaps this has grown stronger because I know and this knowing grows stronger that we promised to do this touching work, this healing, this creating, this loving path together, hand in hand, literally and figuratively.

Though no matter what happens tomorrow, I know that I will continue to open, and open without closing, as I follow my heart’s path as it brings me ever closer to holding you love, as I know with each step, my heart holds you near and nearer to the heaven we are creating. How I anticipate looking at Heaven’s beauty with you standing right beside me, echoing a rhythm of beats inside your chest I can hear so softly, reminding me of the depth of our love that has always been in each moment of this lifetime and beyond.

Until that very moment my beloved, feel my love in the wind around you, feel my love in everything surrounding you, notice my light in the eyes of everyone beside you, know that you know, as I know you know, that I can’t breathe without you and I don’t, I can’t live without you and I won’t…I am running, we are running straight to each other, as within each other is home, yet with each other in all ways home is fully found and experienced. This, I choose, I have chosen …

How can I let go of you when you are the me I see reflected back, the me that I have always been, always known, always been shown in your eyes and your laughter?

How can I walk away or run away from myself which I hear in the tone of your voice as you create our promises through words and melodies so eloquently?

How can I cry when I know that you are within me…your vibration is felt as my voice shares the messages of unity we agreed to bring forth into being this time around, again…as it is time for this ultimate truth to be wedded and embedded in the blueprints of our hearts and the earth, all at the same time…the Heaven on Earth we have experienced, that we know about, that we are pulling down from the ethers is here now…and I have yet to completely embrace you sweet one, to release the tears from the pain of feeling separated from you…the unbearable sadness of your death time upon time, knowing so deeply that death is merely a transition and not an ending…now, we are dying to the way it was to enter into the way it is as we intend it to be…

How can I get frustrated when I know that our love is stronger than fear? We have chosen each other time upon time upon NO time and now THIS time, we are choosing again, have chosen, and because of this, we are here now, awaiting the perfect moment as it nears between us, when all the past, the present and the future all merge into one, into this glorious moment of shedding the hurts of all of those lifetimes when we were able to embrace each other in our various ways and forms…you are no longer injured from war, literally speaking… you are no longer victimized for the painful actions of fear and separation inflicted upon humankind from ones in power… you are no longer that sweet, innocent child who longed to be King and found disappointment in the world as you stumbled through the muck and the yuck of greed…the disappointment is washing away with the sea…let the water take those pieces of you that keep you distanced from yourself. I am here, arms embraced, so eagerly yet patiently waiting to embrace you once again…and when that AGAIN is here, in this moment, as all of our moments come together to bring us together to be together, to be one together. Ah, heaven help my heart as it holds you, for no words can do it justice.

I envision you resting your head upon my breast, letting my heartbeat soothe your pain into nothingness as all the somethings we hold inside our souls come out with words, with glances, with warmth, with the sweet presence of our essence combined. The tears clothe us and ease us into a blissful state of relaxation we have yet to explore…in that exploration we are lost and found, we are re-created anew, for NEWly wed we will be as every moment is like the first time and the first time again and again, bringing us ever more present in the moment of US. In this blossoming of love inside the nothingness and somethings, our creations will take form, change shape right before our eyes, re-forming itself into extensions of creations of our love that we can’t even conceive, right now. How blessed are we as we allow ourselves the pleasure and our gift we give ourselves to love one another, as we love ourselves, as we love all in the process…this is why we chose this dearest one, this is why.

I honor your light, and I see me within your light, glowing back, almost blinding me, bringing me to my knees to see the love within you, within me, within us all. I feel blessed, truly blessed, to see what others may miss for fear of nothing, yet they think it is something…how easy it is to see that you and I are US so softly, and in that softness, I rest. May you rest there too.

August 21, 2011

When I first saw you through these eyes,

you gave me a glimpse of me.

When I looked deeper, I saw many pieces of me within your eyes,

waiting there so patiently to be discovered all in the perfect moment.

The colors of you paint a calming picture of the energies of us dancing throughout existence and perception.

We are as we have always been as we always will be.

The Heavens have opened unto me the light of remembering it is you I have always known.

It is you I have been holding so dear and near to my heart before sleep.

It is you I have written for.

It is you I have laughed with when the darkness seemed too dark.

It is you I have always been calling out to.

It is you I have been waiting for

and you I have always been loving.

Now that I know this, the full creation of you in this lifetime, I will continue to laugh with you, hold you, write with you, and show you again and again, over and over until in the pattern we discover anew another part of us birthing itself into creation.

Ah yes, there are endless pieces of the puzzle that make us who we are,

pillars of light that shine brighter when we stand beside one another.

The Heavens have opened unto me the light of remembering…